I hope you are the one I share my life with
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
I'm sorry. I can't help it but tear cause I really miss you alot. Even though I'm glad to be able to finally chat with you on the phone but I can't help it but to be sad that you've suffered the past few days yet I can't be by your side to give you a hug. :( how I wish you can be here, by my side now.
Dear, I need you want you miss you and love you!
I can't help it but to feel lousy about myself now :(
sealed with a kiss
11:45 PM
Monday, September 22, 2008
I've been rather preoccupied with stuffs so haven't had the chance to actually blog.
I miss darling :( esp after what happened on saturday :( just hope that it doesn't happen again. And I just love it when we talk things out :) darling is always the sweetest, of course it's after me :p
For the very first time, I was angry with him :((
I think it's an experience. Anyway dear sorry for scolding you k. But it's not my fault.
Okay. darling is like outfield now :'(
I'm feeling extremely tired! Barely slept since monday. I had to go school on tuesday, had a paper at 9 am then had ace stuffs at 12 plus then rush down to my grandparents place to change and then rush to work.
I had night shift :( reached home at bout 1plus.
I'm currently working in my aunt's company.. In the office now, using the comp.
Having break. I can't wait to go home and sleep cause I only had bout 5 hrs of rest??
The office is situated at Alexander, near Villa Bali :) Memories flashed back. I guess I will never forget that particular day, cause it's simply wonderful. Thanks dear, I love you.
I can't wait for friday to arrive. I haven't got to chat with dear yet :(((((
I MISS HIM LIKE SO MUCH ------------------------------------|---------------------------------------
- represents my hands and | is my body
I miss serene too.
Oh ya, so I worked with shu fen and guo wei yesterday, it was quite fun. Took some photos and we had like so many merlionster orders!
I worked for quite sometime already and this is the first time it's like this. Just waffles brownies and merlionster. NONSTOP
And there was this "soldier boy" named eugene, interested in shu fen. It was hilarious, he wrote a note on the tissue leaving his number etc
Oh ya, and I got a book from daphne! It's damn nice :) she's loved.
I was so freaking happy, jumping around..
I miss tay zengyi.
Haven't even receive any msg from him :( so worried.
I hope baby won't throw me alone.
loves.
sealed with a kiss
11:53 PM
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
I'm currently blogging with my phone.
Something different right.
I'm feeling rather down now. I don't know what's with me but my mood's been up and down the past few days. This feeling is really very horrible. I've just finished crying a moment ago. Even how tired am I, I could barely sleep last night and don't ask me why cause I don't even know the answer. And can you imagine after going through a horrible night, you wake up feeling bullied by your maid. I don't know how to describe how I'm feeling now but I know my day is ruin.
I really miss darling :( how I wish I can hide in your bag too then maybe I could have slept better cause at least I have your company.
Anyway, I'm really glad to have known you and also have you now. For this, I've got to thank serene and capri :)
Baby you know, you mean the world to me too. Having the feeling of losing you is really very horrible, I was lost, somehow just lose my sense of direction. I didn't know what to do but just wait for your reply. I wasn't sure and couldn't be sure cause I can't deny that I was feeling insecure. I wasn't sure of your heart, cause it's really sudden and surprising and it felt as though it can be taken away anytime.
But now I can probably say that you're mine. My precious darling. And I'm definitely proud of you.
loves.
sealed with a kiss
11:02 AM
Sunday, September 14, 2008
I don't know what words can I use to describe how I feel about yesterday and this morning..
Within that short span of hours, I went through a series of feelings.
Or probably we went through it together.
There were times when I'm sad, disappointed, jealous, happy, touched, shocked/ surprised, .....
But what I've gone through is definitely momorable.
If you hadn't come over, I guess all these will never happen and we would probably miss out a lot in one another's lives... So I'm very thankful for the day.
You know I really believe in this now... sometimes love comes when you least expects it..
I was overjoyed when I heard it, I was really touched and I teared.
Cause I didn't know what words can express how I felt. I'm just probably really very thankful to have you and I'm glad I waited and drop the expectation of you saying that cause I think the impact was stronger..
I wish and I hope for but I don't expect so you really surprised me.
Somehow I really wish you mean it.
I'm kind of unsure but I don't know why..
But if you want to take it back I won't stop you cause I really want you to say it only when you really mean it.
And mr tay I want to tell you that I really want you and I really need you more than you can imagine.
But I'm sorry dear for not being perfect.
I read my friend's blog yesterday and I came to know of stuffs and somehow I felt that too.
There was a time, when I was upset over my failures at the game of love, and people would tell me to let go, because love will eventually find a way to reach you when you least expect it.
But I was very stubborn, and I always held on for longer than I should have.
And when I least expected it, the sweetest love hit me. Considering the circumstances of how we met and all, I would have never thought of this ever happening. I never knew that I could be so happy today.
And definitely I am really very grateful.
Thanks dear.
The dinner was great with your company,
The walk was wonderful with all the talks and understanding,
The fireworks were beautiful and surprising,
The desserts were extremely sweet in addition with the sweetness you surround me with.
The photos are definitely precious with all our memories,
The night was indeed fabulous.
I love you dear.
sealed with a kiss
4:14 PM
Saturday, September 13, 2008
It's been a really busy week for me.
Working and working barely enough time to rest.
Perhaps Monday was the only day I really got a good rest.
Monday was 080908! It was my 1 MONTH anniversary with my baby boy :))
Don't you find time flies..... I really enjoyed my 1 month and I really really hope things will stay as sweet as ever. Even though you're in camp and we didn't get to spend time together but I'm really alright. With your assurance I'm fine and I understand. To admit, I was a little disappointed but I guess it's natural cause it just shows that I care about you and this special day.
Anyway, I stayed home and watch GOSSIP GIRL! It's nice, I like it :))
It can be corny, cheesy and horny but I guess all these adds up to be sweetness and nice.
I like Serena Van De Woodsen and I think Chase Crawford (Nate) is gorgeous!
Okay fullstop to all of that.
I had work on TUESDAY WEDNESDAY FRIDAY
Tuesday morning shift with Tiffanie!
It was really fun and I ended around 6? 6 plus?
Wednesday night shift with Serene and Tabitha!
That night was crazy, tiring but definitely fun.
I reached home at about 1am? We took some photos after work :)
And the band was quite nice.
Friday mid shift.. Morning shift with Meiqi! Night shift with Kat, Guo Wei, Sam and Tiffanie :)
I replaced Sherlyn who was supposed to work.
The company was great, Meiqi and Alicia. I'm definitely thankful for that but it was quite a slow day, probably cause I wasn't feeling well.
The night shift peple came and Meiqi left, I got know Kat who was Ivan and Joyce's batch. She's like some small girl really petite but she's already 20! Okay so never judge a book by it's cover. Kat's a really nice girl and I took photos with people :) and of people. hehe. People will usually say smile at the candid camera or perhaps for your candid shot but I'll say smile at me and my sony T20 :))))
haha and my dearest working crew all your unglam photos are with me!!!
Oh ya, Kat's from Suntec branch so she knows Serene. And told me that the Suntec branch is gonna close down soon.
Okay okay.
I got to chat with MR TAY on MONDAY and FRIDAY :)
So little days :( but I understand he had to walk his 32km through the night on tues and wed he was already extremely tired and I was working so he couldn't chat with me :((
I got to meet him on Thursday!!!! And yes, I was definitely happy, freaking happy, even though I may not show it but I was really happy. How I wish I could just knock you out and hide you in my room, don't let you go back to camp :(
I really miss you :'( I love chatting with you cause only chatting when I get to talk to you then I'll know how are you doing in camp and when you're sad I try my best to cheer you up. Like I always say, please take care of yourself.
Oh ya, I left out Thursday.
HEHE I finally got to shop after like so longgggg!
I went out with Capri and omg la he was late! Of course I complained to my baby boy. heheheh :p
I was looking out for something too and needed Capri's help so basically we were helping one another.
I have always enjoy dressing someone up and this time I got to dress Capri up!
I hope Capri likes the clothes and I feel damn guilty that he spent so much :( cause my baby boy and Capri was talking about that the whole night :'(
I really can't wait to dress my baby boy up. That's the one which I want most not anybody else but my MR TAY ZENGYI. It's different.....
So, Capri and I headed down to Woodlands at about 6 to meet baby for dinner :) and to spend time together. We ate at Pizza Hut and Capri left soon after that. And my dearest Mr Tay flirted with a cashier working at the Cold Storage like right in front of meeeee... omg right. haha okay he didn't he was just saying some stuffs.....
Anyway, I was really happy to be able to meet you.
My dear boy and I was talking about some stuffs last night...
And I just want you to know that you don't need to be jealous of anyone and I won't be seduced by anyone else cause I love my boyfriend. And of course my only boyfriend is Tay Zengyi. And I hope you won't be seduced by anyone else... you told me before that you have a low resistance, if a girl tries to seduce you :(( damn depressed.
Even so, I can't wait to meet you later and celebrate our belated 1 month :))
I miss you.
bye.
ps. on diet on diet :(
sealed with a kiss
9:38 AM
Saturday, September 6, 2008
As all of you can see..
I'm a lazy blogger :( :( :(
I shall just type my whole week here and then post as a whole :))
And yes I was supposed to put up my schedule for the week.. but i didn't :(
SUNDAY
I met up with Mr Tay! in the afternoon.......just for a little while.
But I guess that's just enough to make me smile. That simple afternoon was really wonderful, I enjoyed myself, simply cause it's good enough to have him by my side.
SWEETNESS.
CITYHALL -- BOAT QUAY (supposed to be Fullerton's Starbucks) -- THE CENTRAL -- STARBUCKS! MY GREEN TEA LATTE :) -- SOME CAFE -- FUNAN IT MALL -- ROM/RMM? around there to see -- FIRST BOTANIC GARDEN -- FORT CANNING PARK -- THE LEGENDS !
The Legends would really be a very special place for us, like baby has said...
Oh ya, we took a really long time to decide and plan where we want to go for that afternoon but in the end it didn't go as we planned :(
In any way, I think that's not really important, enjoying and cherishing every moment spent together is the most important :) at least for me
Okay so he had to go back camp that night.
MONDAY
5 days to go...
I went out with my mum, brother, aunt, cousin and grandma :)
Went to eat some jap food then headed down to Selegie cause my grandma needs to go for some injection.
I took quite awhile to think where do I want to go cut my hair.
As my cousin was gonna cut her hair at international plaza and she asked whether I want to join her, but i decided not to take the risk AND not to be a light bulb :)
Okay, anyway, I did cut my hair, but this time with a different hairdresser, my mum brought me there and coincidentally, she's a good friend of mine hairdresser!
Oh ya, I trimmed my eye brows too :)
Quite a fruitful day.
Rather satisfied :)))
I managed to chat with dear rather early! I was freaking happy and I really hope this is a better week for him.
I want to be darling's happy pill!
And I don't wanna be dubbit :( hmp
I MISS MY MR TAY.
TUESDAY
4 days to go...
Okay I had work, morning shift and I was late!
hehe and Ivan came for work :)
Shifu saved my life cause Sherlyn left early.
for info, Ivan = shifu
Anyway, I ended work around 6 plus.
Night shift only had Tiff alone, lucky uncle sam, eddie and tiong came.
Ivan stayed for awhile to help too.
So, I said wrong stuffs to uncle tiong when he was sending me to the bus stop :( and end up he ask me to work at Sentosa's branch since I'm having holidays and I claimed that Dempsey's shifts are all full that's why I'm working on so little days.
GONE.
I met up with Ming and Siangkoon at Plaza Sing after work.
And both of them are using the iphone! :'( random.
Anyway, we went over to starbucks, sat for a moment then decided to go down to siangkoon's house to drink first. Took a cab down and it's damn expensive, 28 bucks, even though I don't need to pay but I feel so cheated for him. We had talks on the way and while drinking :) I got to hear alot of stories and etc. haha. freaking funny. So Ming leaked out Siangkoon's story and Siangkoon leaked out Ming's to me and many others.
So we had 2 bottles of red wine? We drank by the pool :)
Then we headed down to Serangoon, met up with quite a number of people and continue drinking.. I think I'll die continue drinking with them.
I managed to get jie huan and Ming out with me to 7 eleven then I cabbed home.
I didn't get drunk! :)
So happy with myself and cause I promised dear to be responsible for myself and yes, getting drunk is against my principles.
Okay, but my stomach was hurting cause I drank with empty stomach :(
All in all, I enjoyed myself
I didn't managed to talk to dear in the night :(
Really very disappointed and upset cause I really miss him.
Just can't wait for Saturday to arrive.
WEDNESDAY
3 days to go..
I stayed home and slack.
I forgot about my laptop appointment.
And I regret drinking the night before.
Or at least not that amount with an empty stomach.
Stomach hurts :(
Anyway, I managed to chat with dear!
You know chatting with him in the night is always the best thing of the day :)
I shared with him stuffssss and he shared with me stuff :(
I hope you'll take care of yourself in there.
I don't wan you to fall sick especially when I'm not by yr side.
My silly baby.
misses.
THURSDAY
2 days to go...
I had work. Opening myself with mama jan :(
Really very tiring.
2 new scoopies came to have some training.
Ivan came down to teach them.
Mummy came down to pick me.
She had Belgium waffles with ice-cream and a latte over at my place.
Then we headed down to her office to settle some stuffs while I was grabbing a bite with my brother :)
haha and my brother actually says that he wants to go on diet!
I got to know that my brother's friend actually say him fat, he got really pissed off. And he told that guy at least I am fat with brains unlike you who's skinny without brain.
Quite bad but quite cool. :p
Anyway, I got to chat with darling :)
But I'm sad to know that he's unhappy.
you know when he's mood is low mine will also be...
darling darling.. please smile for me cause your smile matters to me the most.
And I'm really sorry to feel insecure.
I can't help it.
I guess it will really take time to get rid of this.
Don't worry I'll be fine and I do trust you.
But sometimes you're so nice that will make me wonder will someone take you away..
or will you leave me for someone better prettier :(
I don't wan other girls to seduce you :(
HMP!
BOOOOOOO :((((((((
come give me a hug.
loves.
FRIDAY
1 day to go!
I MISS MR TAY ZENGYI!
I had work.
Opening with a new scoopy
Had to teach her stuffs guide her while doing stuffs.
OMG. I was so stressed until I felt like crying.
She's teachable but just really a lot of work and very stressful.
I cannot do anything wrong etc.
I worked for like 10 hours.
Cause night shift not a lot of people and have another new scoopy.
Samantha was coming late also, so mama jan and uncle sam asked me to stay and help out. At least guide the new scoopy. And finally I got to know Tabby( Tabitha) :)
She's damn fun to work with and I'm working with her on next Wednesday!
Anyway, I'm extremely extremely tired.
10 to 4.30 without any break and then continue from 5 till 8 plus.
Lucky daddy came to pick me :)
Otherwise I would have probably just faint while on my way home. I mean seriously.
I didn't get to make my cheesecake :'(
And I didn't get to talk to dear :'( :'(
He was back at camp damn late :(
My poor baby boy.
I MISS YOU.
My mood was damn low.
Really very tired.
I just can't wait to meet you and talk to you.
Fast forward time please but don't take away my sleeping time :'(
Mr Tay's message woke me up this morning :(
I'm super tired but it will still take time for me to fall back to sleep :(
Then mummy woke me up to do admin stuffs for her!
Damn angry.
AND TIRED!
But still I can't wait to meet him.
bye.
misses.
loves.
sealed with a kiss
9:56 AM
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I'm someone who is simply captivated by beautiful and pretty things..
Fascinated with all the sweet and wonderful things around me like chocolates and flowers..
I adore my friends and time spent with all my dearest..
I enjoy RETAIL THERAPY..
Wanting to live life to the fullest by enjoying every moment and experiencing the best..
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