Saturday, August 30, 2008
Ming says that I'm ungrateful.
Cause I just scolded him an asshole :)
But I was just stating a fact.
YIUMINGYIU you are damn freaking greedy.
I shan't scold you or say you cause I know it's no point.
My dearest best buddy we'll see what happens k.
I have no time to bother about you for now.
And I think your girlfriends will love me to bits cause I have this ability to make you stop gaming.
Anyway, separate case, you're always my best bud.
Thanks.
So, I managed to have some small talks with quite a number of my good friends.
I guess there's really lots to catch up on.
I definitely miss my secondary school days.
Okay, Clarissa is a happy girl for now with things back to normal :)
I miss you.
sealed with a kiss
10:30 PM
I don't know what can I say.
I only know that I'm really very sorry.
Trust is very very important to me too. But I guess feelings matter to me even more.
All I wish and hope for is for another chance, please trust me.
I just don't wish and don't want to lose you.
I'm sorry.
I love you.
sealed with a kiss
3:01 PM
Friday, August 29, 2008
I shall just blog about today first, before anything else.
I am really very very disappointed in myself today.
It's a really lousy day for me.
Everything don't seems to go well for me today. A really horrible day for me.
I barely slept the night before, at the chalet. But I've no choice. I rushed home early in the morning, changed etc and headed down to school. Today had AGM and sad to say I'm not one of the excos. I never expected to be in the excos too, for various reasons. I don't absolutely fancy the positions, as I understand and know that it's too political. But somehow I don't feel that good to actually know that a certain person got a position and yet I didn't.
I'm confused. Cause I know I kind of want to get in but somehow don't feel like getting in cause of various reasons. I shall just list some of them. want: It's like a recognition for all the achievements and contributions, It's fun and interesting with my friends... Don't want: It's very political, I want to concentrate on my studies, It's very time consuming and I would want to have more free time for myself, my friends, and of course my boyfriend...
In any way, I just wanna congratulate those who got in and I hope they will do well and live up to the standard of SIT club.
Okay, so I met Zengyi after that, things were alright at first. Even though I was rather moody but I'm glad that he was there. We managed to spend sometime alone together then meet up with his friends.
We headed down to marina square for dinner and yea this was when it happened.
Somehow, I'm really very disappointed in myself. I don't understand how can let such a thing happen. I shouldn't have been so lazy and should have bothered more to actually throw it away long time ago. I should have been more considerate and thought how would you have felt. I'm sorry dear.
I really feel that I'm a lousy girlfriend.
This is the first time that you're like this to me.
I've never seen you being so upset about me before.
Actually, I don't know whether you're upset, angry, jealous or what... Cause I really can't figure out and you're not telling me directly.
I think I'm really very stupid. :(
You know you really scare me, I'm really frightened and shocked by yr reaction.
Frightened till I can't help but cry.
I'm frightened cause you're not talking to me, I don't know what are you thinking and how are you feeling. And most importantly, I don't want to lose you.
I am shocked cause I never thought that you would be angry until like this. But somehow I sat down and thought through and I kind of feel a bit glad. Cause actually through this, I got to know you actually do care a lot about me. This is the first time I can see and feel that I matter to you. I don't know how to describe. Even though you do show concern, you do say you miss me, you do tell me stuffs like I mean something to you but these are just words so I can't really know how you feel. It's just different, cause you actually mean alot alot to me, far more than you can imagine. But all along I can't help but think that I'm the only one feeling that way, cause you always have no reaction towards some things that I do and say.
For example... You know I put my status as in a relationship with serene, it is a bit cause for the fun out of it but my main purpose was to see your reaction. But sad to say, I never get any. I actually hoped that you will say something like why I put serene in a relationship with me and how about you.. I hoped that you will say you want me to put in a relationship with you. Or maybe write at serene's or mine wall, saying that I'm yours.
Do I expect alot?
I don't know. You know I do wanna put in a relationship with you cause it means alot to me but I don't know whether you want anot and will you like it anot.
Even though you did put our photos up and I'm happy about that but it's still different.
Anyway, I wanna tell you that those neoprints really don't mean anything anymore. It never meant anything at all since the day you stepped into my life, the day you entered my life. Cause you mean so much more to me, you mean the world to me.
Those neoprints belongs to my past and he and it can only remain in the past, nothing more than that. However, you're different, you're my present and I definitely hope my future too. I really don't wish that my past is affecting us, cause I really don't want to lose you.
I really really like you more than you think of. Although the time we get together isn't very long but somehow you're really very special to me. You're definitely irreplaceable to me. May be I guess you wouldn't and can't believe what I've just said, but I really do mean what I've said.
I just can't sleep, even though I'm feeling really tired. I really miss you. You know when you ask me to go home, I felt really sad and I really want to stay but I don't know what to say. It's like a knife stabbed into my heart, it felt as though you didn't want me anymore. I don't want you to feel that I'm very clingy to you, like a burden to you so I thought may be I should give you some time alone, cause may be you will need it.
I started tearing as I walked away and somehow hoped that you will come grab hold of me. I felt really miserable and upset with myself. I didn't feel like going home at all. I wanted to go out but don't know why, happens that all the people I called didn't pick up the phone. At that point of time I was very selective in terms of who I call so yupp.
I hang around esplanade for a little while then left for home. You know I've said it before that at this time and situation, you can't leave me alone.....
I really do want to meet you today but I won't force you. I really want to talk to you but I'll wait till you want to talk to me.
Baby I really need you and I hope you need me as much too.
I'm sorry.
sealed with a kiss
11:34 PM
Thursday, August 28, 2008
I haven't blogged for a few days already.
Feeling quite emo. rather emo :(
thought through quite a few stuffs.
And I guess it's time to clear up some things.
Anyway I can say exams kind of ended already.
finally.
I shall just briefly talk about the past few days.
I got to meet zengyi on Sunday :)
We met up quite late, later than the original time as he was busy.
I was supposed to study but I guess our original plan FAILED, as I've expected.
But I'm glad to be able to spend time with him. And I got to see esplanade's library!
Oh ya, he looked fine with his super short hair. I thought it's cute, with an army boy look. haha
Even though the time we could spend together isn't very long but I'm really really extremely happy to be able to meet him. I don't know how to describe how much I miss him. Dear sent me to cck, ate our dinner, I bought some stuffs and we headed separate ways. And before he left for camp, he passed me a CD and something else :)
You know I'm surprised that you've thought of that, somehow it felt as though you've read my mind and I was really happy. You're the first one who made me want to do this, I don't know why but these photos means a lot to me. These are the memories which I will hold closely to me heart.
And yes. Sorry dear for causing you to be late(nearly late). :((
I managed to talk to him in the night.
I had DBMS on Monday.
I guess it was alright. Lucky the paper was in the afternoon.
I didn't managed to talk to him for long but it was good enough to be able to hear his voice.
I fell sick on Tuesday :((
Dear was sick too.
Didn't managed to take my paper but I'll be taking it some other day.
I got to chat with Serene online :) And Capri too. Quite fun and interesting.
Zengyi talked to me in the night but don't know why, somehow I became very moody :(
Sorry dear. It's definitely not cause of Capri joining our conversation, cause I'm absolutely fine with that and I understand.
I also don't know why was I so moody.
I miss you. And really glad to receive your message telling me and assuring me stuffs.
Anyway, I got chat with Sherman online... I could understand how stressed he was, he's having his prelims, I guess I'm equally stressed up. And don't know how to relieve it. :( Chatting with dear in the night is the only thing that could make me feel better I guess.
And Sherman, we'll definitely meet up someday, soon. Lots to catch up on :)
Yesterday was supposed to be the last paper. And my class have a chalet but lucky I got to know beforehand that only the guys were gonna stay over for the night. I had lots of plans for the night.. I felt like going out to drink so I gave ming a call and of course he would agree to meet me and drink but... wonder did ask me if wanna go zouk but I didn't feel like going instead just wanted to have some drinks. We were like planning stuffs, end up agreed to meet today for gym, she will drive over and pick me but end up plan failed. Okay anyway, I didn't go anywhere last night, didn't go out and drink or what so ever, cause I was still sick and cause I promised to take care of myself and not to get drunk when he's in camp. If I were to go out and drink last night, I have a very strong feeling that I'll get drunk for the first time in my life, like really drunk cause of the people who I would have been drinking with and also my mood.
I don't want to add on to his worries, I know he's busy enough.
I was extremely tired ytd, end up I didn't get to talk to him. really very very disappointed and upset. It's all my fault :( I really miss him until wanna cry already :'(
I'm rather worried and concern about him, cause he's sick and his day didn't seems to be a good one too.
I'm a lousy girlfriend :((
oh ya, dom drove over to my place and sent me to school ytd. Really got to thank him. Thanks my best friend!
Okay, I've got to go for my class chalet today.
Rather tired and busy. Friday is a full day of activity for me and I'll get to meet him!
I'm talking to ming now and he just told me some stuffs.... Somehow ming has a girlfriend :)
Anyway, I guess my best buddy could tell I'm troubled.
I'm gonna meet him before going for chalet, maybe for some coffee or a game of pool to make me feel better. Otherwise, I'm gonna breakdown soon.
Ending here. I am super late!
bye.
sealed with a kiss
12:57 PM
Saturday, August 23, 2008
6th day.
Okay, he was in camp earlier, he just booked out at about 8.30pm?
I'm really really really very HAPPY. Cause I can talk to him later and he's out, not suffering in there :)
Somehow I have the urge of cooking for him just now, I don't know why but I felt like cooking something nice for him to eat, partly cause my poor boy has been in camp.
Yes, Today is simply boring, nothing much, just waiting for his call. I guess he's very tired, so can't talk to him for long too :( nevermind. I'll try to understand. I've written something in my diary but I shan't say here. So, I miss him.
byeeee.
loves.
sealed with a kiss
10:31 PM
Friday, August 22, 2008
5th day.
FINANCE SUCKS!
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I'm not a person who will say vulgarities, but this paper has this ___ ability to me make say...
Anyway, I did cry as I felt so bad after that.
And I really really miss my Mr Tay Zengyi :(
Okay, I just can't help but ponder or this matter :'(
3 more papers to go.
I just can't wait to meet him.
And I met dom this morning, he finished his papers already!
UNFAIR :( somemore show off to me.
Oh ya, you know he met me like damn early! 4.30 am?
He was having fun while I'm mugging... see, my best friend. Deserves to be dumped into the bin.
Anyway anyway..
I'm sick, down with flu and cough. My nose was gonna drop off already.........
Baby is sick too :( see, he never take care of himself. DISAPPOINTED.
Okay, I'm more worried instead. My poor boy :(
I told him, how can he fall sick when I didn't him the permission to...
And he said the same thing back :( Booooo
But I like it when he said may be it's telepathy, cause we fell sick at the same time.
I'm feeling really tired.
I barely slept
I don't know what to say, just hope that I can get to talk to him tonight cause I really really wanna hear his voice.
And I guess probably only he can cheer me up already.
Not that others can't, it's different I guess...
misses.
sealed with a kiss
5:43 PM
Thursday, August 21, 2008
4th day.
I shall cut short and sweet.
I managed to chat with serene today. And I got to know some stuffs. Firstly, I'm really very happy for my dear girl. And really very happy to know you're probably coming back during December.
Our double dates :)) Oh ya and Capri complained to serene that Zengyi and me is very disgusting, pda. LOL. But serene say that ignore him and she thinks pda is hot!
Don't know what's pda? come ask me then.
Oh ya, she also told me about the day she left, she and her mom was the last passenger to board he plane. haha and the crews all know their name! Her mom was nagging at her throughout the whole journey. Poor girl :(
I miss her.
But sorry to say I miss Mr Tay even more :((
Different type of misses.
Clarissa can't wait for december to arrive! Serene back and Zengyi out. hehe best of both world. And definitely the reunion of the clique of 4! :) I'll be a Happy girl then. Even though I have school :((((
bye.
sealed with a kiss
5:42 PM
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Okay, it's the 3rd day already..
I just can't wait to see him and his super super short hair. :p
I shall just briefly talk about last Saturday first.
So, I woke up rather early and went to school for the interview.
It's quite scary, with a bunch of seniors sitting in front of you asking you QUESTIONS, never ending questions.
Regardless of the result, it was a great experience.
There were quite a number of people who turned up for the interview. But quite a number who didn't turn up too.
After which, I met up with Zengyi at Kallang MRT, Okay I was late, due to the drag in timing etc, anyway, I'm sorry dear. :(
I felt kind of bad to know that his friends were all waiting for us to arrive to start ICE-SKATING!
It was rather fun even though I didn't know how to skate.
I was freaking scare :( cause I fell a few times but I'm lucky to have dear with me.
You know I haven't ice- skate for a really long time. The last time my class had one, I missed it. Oh ya, I don't know why but it seems that I always have class gathering doing things like ice-skating, but somehow I cant make it for it, end up joining them after that. I remember the last time I ice-skated was years ago with 3A(sec 3)?
Okay we took quite alot of photos.
And I'll upload them some other day :)
I enjoyed myself for the fact that dear have nice friends and definitely because I have the company of him.
Zengyi and me then headed down to zouk to watch NTU's pageant. My naggy cousin.....
Okay, not my cousin who was involved in it. It's his girlfriend and I know that he never like the fact that she joined the pageant and I'm super sure he nagged at her thousand of times.
Do you know the girls arent pretty at all. Sorry but I just felt that way and I think there are much prettier ones studying in NTU, as there were like so many prettier girls present at zouk compared to those in the pageant. The guys were slightly better but no where good too. By the way, I was right, the slutty one won. haha and I doubt the guys that I felt were the better ones won cause if I'm not wrong the guy who won was the partner of the slutty one. I can't deny, I thought the slutty one was the better looking one.
Okay, there's no harm in saying that right :( you guys better not say out what I'm blogging. I don't wanna have retribution :( KARMA :((( cannot.
Oh ya, we ate at the prata stall near zouk before the pageant started and it's rather ex. Erm but I guess there's no other stalls near there already? Okay people, so quickly go open a food stall near there and I believe you will sure earn money :p I'm not evil. I'm being nice to tell people how to earn money. You know a good location is very critical to the success of a shop too....... :))
We left zouk quite early, it was quite boring :(
then we headed to town to join back his friends, for dinner. And my nice baby followed me to get my belt at far east :)
Dinner was alright, and I got to know stuffs like zengyi is very lousy at telling jokes? lol.
After which, he sent me home.
I love it when he sends me home, but I kind of don't expect him to do so everytime cause I understand that he stays very far away but somehow I wish it could be more often. :) I guess last time I used to be quite demanding about this particular issue, but somehow to him I can't bear to even though I feel like.
It was the last time I met him :(
Anyway, I had a good conversation with him that night. Even though I was having a slight fever, it never stopped me from talking to him, instead my energy was there as some issues arise and I'm really really glad we talked it out. It was rather saddening though, it felt as though you don't want me anymore :'( I felt like crying but I didn't maybe just teared a little, cause we talked it out in time I guess.
That's pretty much all about saturday.
Back to today.
I've written my diary already.
Okay so today had IP net paper, the 1st paper. It was alright, just hope the teacher doesn't faint while marking my paper.
And I'm really happy to receive msges from dear this morning. He somehow boosted my confidence.. I actually really had no confidence in the paper but he said this to me: " regardless of circumstances being against you, I know and hope you'll perform like you always do".
That made me thought that giving off my best is the most important. With the time I was left with, I called Maven to meet up with me to study in school. I really have to thank Maven, as the 1 hr and 30 mins was really very useful.
4 more papers to go. next- Finance :(
I talked to carina this afternoon, and her prelims will be ending next week too!
Shall share some parts of our convo. I told her I'll be finishing on wed and she was like " OMG, are you serious, Wait, I think mine too!" Okay but false alarm. It's on Thursday, still I'm excited to meet her. My gossip, bitching, shopping partner!
Anyway, I managed to talk to dear. :) It's really sweet of him to think of sending me the lyrics of those songs every night. But I wonder do he mean and feel that way too like those lyrics......
And I can't help but wonder has he done this for her too.
BOooooo
I shall end here. BYE
sealed with a kiss
8:38 PM
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Okay I just feel like blogging even though I have already written in my diary today.
I'm supposed to be studying but I'm not.
I kind of do not have confidence in tml's IP net exam.
But I'll be strong.
Even though I did not managed to talk to you on the phone tonight but I'm glad to at least receive a sms from you.
Though it's a short one, but it's sweet.
And for you, I will try my hardest to pull through the week. In hope to meet you by the end of it.
Cause dear I really miss you alot :((
You make me want to stand strong for you. I will not cry even how stressed up I am feeling now cause I know you don't like me to cry.
You know I just happen to come across ethel's blog a moment ago.
Gosh, I kind of find it unbelieveable... 42 months plus and they are still standing strong together.
I remember people saying that they wouldn't last long but I guess they really proved them wrong.
Whether I'm one of them anot, I have no comments.
But I just recalled back those times, what people say about her, flirt bitch etc, the truth is I wouldn't really say that cause I guess I have no rights to. ( You wouldn't know what I've said too cause I forget what I've thought and I doubt I've told anyone)
But it really surprised me, for her and Alson to last so long.
So many couples broke up and found new ones within this time however they managed to overcome their barriers and ignore what others said. I guess it's really wonderful.
Be it I'm close to her anot or whether I like her anot, it doesn't matter. ( In fact I'm never really close to her and I guess I didn't really want to. And whether I like her anot, my beloved friends who were close to me during sec would know)
Now I sincerely hope they will last long and prove those who didn't thought good of them wrong.
I kind of envy.... BUT I know I shouldn't.
Cause I know it will happen to me too :))
There was this part in her blog, whereby someone told her this:
"If you can't make everybody like you, believe that they do."
And she said that she does that. But I believe not many can do that though. Okay, I know she can do that, truth is she's thick-skinned enough to do so. But somehow I doubt I can, I know I cant, even how ignorant I can be, the level of ignorance is still to a certain extend for me.
Anyway, I'm not that strong but because I know you're there so I'll try my best to be strong and when I'm tired I know you'll be there somehow, to grab hold of me and not let me fall totally. Thanks dear.
Of course I know my dearest friends are there to lend me a helping hand too, to be my backing when I needed one. So i truly feel glad to have you guys. I believe you all will know who I'm referring to, definitely the ones who are reading this.
I need to go back to studying. So I shall end here. Just a little thought for the day.
Oh ya, today is ming's 20th birthday.
I just had an interesting convo with him on msn.
So this year, I forget to wish him earlier cause I was busy with other stuffs but still I didn't forget.
♥ c l a r i s s a. says:
oi
♥ c l a r i s s a. says:
MR yiu ming yiu.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
♥ c l a r i s s a. says:
hope it's not too late
`Ming Yiu says:
too late?
`Ming Yiu says:
about what what?
♥ c l a r i s s a. says:
and yes, I called you today but you were aslp
`Ming Yiu says:
lol
♥ c l a r i s s a. says:
wishing you happy birthday lo
c l a r i s s a. says:
I never forget okay
`Ming Yiu says:
wait
`Ming Yiu says:
today is 19th?
♥ c l a r i s s a. says:
yes
♥ c l a r i s s a. says:
10 days after natinal day?
♥ c l a r i s s a. says:
national*
♥ c l a r i s s a. says:
am I wrong?
`Ming Yiu says:
o
`Ming Yiu says:
lol, is my birthday today
♥ c l a r i s s a. says:
huh
`Ming Yiu says:
nevermind, thanks
♥ c l a r i s s a. says:
so issit yr birthday today?
`Ming Yiu says:
yea
♥ c l a r i s s a. says:
no one wish you meh
`Ming Yiu says:
you the 1st lol
♥ c l a r i s s a. says:
gosh
Okay he's definitely blur and yes he's having exams too, So I wronged you for something. :p
Anyway, even though you're very blur, you're always my best buddy, it never changed, and will never be it 2 years 8 years 10 years or what so ever from now, our friendship will last forever. 8 years has gone by and still counting...
MY DEAREST BUDDY, HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!
loves.
2nd day. 4 more days.
sealed with a kiss
10:47 PM
Sunday, August 17, 2008
My dear boy will be going into SISPEC tomorrow :((
But I will be strong.
I know I will miss him but he says that... "let's not be sad, afterall they say, absence makes the heart grows fonder!"
I hope it's true then :)
And I know that I won't stray away during this period of time cause you're irreplaceable. Even though the time we spent together isn't very long but these memories are definitely priceless and I believe it is enough for us to stand firm and close to one another. At least I know it is good enough for me.
I hope to be able to contact you often even when you're in there cause at least I know you're well and I'm not forgotten.
Okay, I guess I kind of disappoint my dear boy with something today.
But I really wish that you don't get angry cause I won't know what to do if you are...
I can only be truthful to you cause I don't see a point in lying.
But remember this.
You do mean alot to me, more than what you think.
I do feel alot for you, even though I don't express as it seems.
And I hope you see that no one can take this place of yours.
I have lots more to say but just don't know how to say it.
Anyway, yesterday was really nice even though my mood wasn't really good and I wasn't feel that well.
But seeing my dear boy did cheer me up alot.
And bringing me out with your friends means alot to me too.
Even though I cant ice-skate for nuts but your company definitely made me enjoy myself and seeing you so happy makes me smile.
I'm very thankful for the conversation in the night. Even though I was kind of upset but I'm glad we said it all out cause the misunderstandings we had has been cleared.
You have impressed me enough and things like those will never change the impression I have of you. In my eyes, you are definitely shining brightly, bright enough, so don't make me go blind k.
Okay I will blog more about yesterday in the next post :)
sealed with a kiss
11:56 PM
Thursday, August 14, 2008
MONDAY.
I left my hse quite late. My baby boy came to pick me, wanting to send me to the chalet, really sweet of him and I truly appreciate it.
But I kind of upset him at the beginning. And I'm really sorry dear :((
So we headed down to town cause of Tidus but it was kind of a wasted trip for him. Lucky, something else made it worth it. Introducing me to him made me rather happy, I guess it meant something to me.
And I hope you did enjoy yrself with the time spent with him alone
I hurriedly cabbed down to aranda country club after that as I was already very late.
hmmm. upon arriving I found that it's quite weird that the senior excos and us, the juniors are like separated into 2 groups, having our own talks and pits.
And within ourselves it was definitely very "groupies".. each in their own cliques, doing different things.
I cannot deny I was with michael they all most of the time also. yup..
Anyway, had some funny moments, like the guys ended up locking the doors of one of the room while playing and had to call for the housekeeper for rescue in order to enter the room again.
Having someone popping out of the cabinet all of a sudden is indeed scary..
I got to play a little pool at the Ehub! but barely enough to satisfy me :(
Then I headed back to the chalet, grabbed my stuffs and left to meet my dear.
I definitely have to thank cui hui and matt for the company to the bus stop.
And apologise to Michael benito and gang for disappointing.
Okay. So my beloved and I ate at somewhere. My new found playland...
Then we grabbed a bottle of wine from his place then walked over to ECP :)
Oh ya, my dearest was sweet enough to actually bus half way and meet me on the way so that I wldnt be alone :)
Back to the point.. So we walked around ECP to find an empty hut, as it was like going rain.
He wanted to sit on the rocks but I was so scared and just refused to climb up :p end up he has to come down. hehe
Okay so we put our stuffs down, open the bottle of red wine and drank a little.
And I wanted to walk along the beach, cause I thought it would be really sweet and nice. At first he didn't want to get his legs wet but I kind of insisted and really glad he did it. :)
It's really my first time doing stuffs like this and I had always been wanting to do this, so I'm really thankful and happy. It was just simply sweetness but somehow I don't know how to express or tell you how much I really appreciate your effort and company, I just hope you know..
We had a really good talk and just enjoy the company while waiting for time to pass and the sun to rise.
Yes. My dear got drunk! He drank too much red wine, he practically drank the whole bottle by himself. He was sweet enough not wanting me to drink much and get drunk but no worries, that will never happen. Hmmm, may be it might.. when you really upset me.
Anyway, I kind of looked after him when he was drunk. I kind of enjoyed that moment, even though it was quiet when he's resting but it was sweet.
And I'm really happy to know that he appreciates what I've done.
So, we didn't really get to see a nice sunrise but I guess the wonderful time we had spent together is good enough to make up for it :))
Both of us headed home after that, I cabbed home while he just need to walk home. And my silly boy pissed his mom off but I really appreciate what you've done, taking an MC cause of me.
The time we could spend together is really very little but I just want to cherish what we are left with now and use it to the fullest.
TUESDAY.
I reached home, showered and slept!
I was really really exhausted.
This day was just spent at home.
Oh ya, my dear had a dream.. haha
And I want to tell you, it's only a dream, nothng more than that because that will NEVER happen.
WEDNESDAY.
I was supposed to go school for a revision lecture but I was late and my mood was rather low end up I just went down straight to my grandparents place to rest visit my grandpa and also collect stuffs.
Dear came to meet me at holland V, we had our dinner at Thai Express then had our dessert at Cold Rock! :) And I found out that I actually bother to observe and take notice of his likings more than he does about me.
We then headed down to zouk to catch the pageant, we were rather late but in time to see the results. So yup, his sis got into the finals which is very good. And of course congras to her.
I hang around for a little while, we walked over to shell and get a drink, chat a little then I left for home and he stayed.
I didn't want to stop him as I know he really wants to stay and I didn't want to deprive him of that just cause I don't want to club.
I do trust him so I allowed him to join his friends and have fun.
I guess he did really enjoy himself.
And yes, he got drunk again. I wasn't really very pleased with that but when I hear of it, I felt like scolding him but I was even more worried instead.
Moreover, I wasn't there to look after him this time, I felt kind of guilty at that moment for not staying and club with him.
Okay, I was disappointed in him but definitely more worried. I hope this doesn't happen again. How I wish I can infuse some of mine not getting drunk thinking into him..
THURSDAY.
Okay I didn't exactly had a really good sleep...
My granny came over to my place in the morning
And I had lunch with a teacher of mine from secondary sch who became a really good friend of mine..
We had a good time, good talk and good food. And definitely thanks for the treat.
After which he drove me home. Thanks for the ride too.
Anyway, I wasn't exactly in my best of mood. I was quite unhappy. I don't know how to describe. I just hope that you know I really do care alot about you but don't disappoint me. I may be demanding but I don't think that is overboard. I just want to spend more time now when we could and not till when we couldn't then regret.
When you're in Sispec it will be different so don't worry.
The attention I'm asking of now is different, just different and I just hope you will understand.
Anyway, surprisingly ming called me back today. And i really appreciate it my dear buddy.
Cause I really need it, somehow I just felt I need to share with you stuffs.
So my best buddy managed to make me feel slightly better with his crappy talks.
I ask him when and where will I get to see his girlfriend he tell me she's probably dead somewhere, then I say how can he say her like this, then he replied saying she's only his gf not his wife.
So I asked again when and where can I get to see my "dao sao"
And he tell me in his bedroom.
Okay I was speechless.
In any way, I'm waiting to see who's the next one k. It's been a long time, I'll sure intro you someone and it's time I intro you someone even though I know you have plenty of them.
To end this.. I guess there's only one person who can make me truly happy for now. And of course it's only you, dear.. we will see what you do k.
bye loves.
sealed with a kiss
11:21 PM
Sunday, August 10, 2008
National Day
Okay I was nearly done with the post but somehow it got deleted! :((
so I shall just cut it short.
This year's national day was spent with my dearest.
It was really nice.
And it was something different as I usually spend it with my family be it watching live at the stadium or just simply eating dinner at home.
Except for....
2005 which I was involved in it
And 2006 which I helped out and dine out with my madams and officers.
Okay, so my dear boy and I headed down to cityhall and we caught bite at Canele and I happened to meet rachel at B&J.
Then we walked over to padang cause he was simply so excited which I find really amusing.
The whole place was so packed, it was really crowded.. from cityhall all the way to marina.
We hang around one fullerton, we took tons of photos and just enjoy the company.
So my cute little boy was really excited and happy to catch the black knights and fireworks.
I hardly ever seen someone around his age to be like this.
May be this is just another side of him, but it's rather attractive.
Anyway, after that we went down to The Villa Bali, it's a really nice place.
And I definitely have to thank Maven, cause if it weren't for him I wouldn't have known the place and it was really nice of him that day. The food was not bad and the drinks were rather nice.
We were just basically cam-whoring the day away and I also got to know quite a bit of stuffs and shared quite a bit of stuffs :))
The time spent was just simply wonderful.
Okay. Oh man.. Serene called me today!
We chatted for quite a long time and shared stuffs. Really private stuffs :p
Was really happy and I MISS HER SO MUCH!
Shall blog more another time. BYE
loves.
sealed with a kiss
10:15 AM
Saturday, August 9, 2008
I HATE IT WHEN HE SAYS THAT I AM CHILDISH! :(
sealed with a kiss
12:21 PM
It's a special day :))
080808
A memorable day.
- National Day Eve.
- Opening ceremony of Olympics.
- My Happy Special Day.
Okay, ytd I had role play in school, then OGLs voting session.
After which I went out with audrey jess michael benito jiaming marcus thomas joel yongkuang matthew alvin
We caught a movie, " Love Guru"
It's quite nice, rather funny but of course the company was even better :)
Oh ya I made a trip down to Holland V to my grandparents place while they were having lunch, to do some stuffs and my poor grandpa, he injured his leg :((
Okay back to point. After the movie, we hang around The Cathay, the guys played CS and the girls walked around. Half-way through it, zengyi came to meet me and I left with him.
So we headed to cuppage and eat our dinner :) a rather nice japanese resturant, my new found place, I shall bring my mum there. Lovely. I wanted to play pool so we went down to meridian but sadly there's no table so we walked over to the Istana park and cam-whore! haha.But somehow there weren't many nice photos )): okay so we just walked aimlessly, sat down at the end of Parkmall (dome that side) chat a little, took some photos. Then we continued our journey, ended up at fort canning park there. Hmmm, some club? Okay so we decided to chill there.... And we left around 11 plus and we headed home.. :)
You know I felt really happy ytd cause my beloved asked me something. And I made him repeat a few times, cause somehow listening to it made me feel that i'm blessed and loved. Even though it was really simple, but somehow it was sweet too and although it was not exactly planned and it could had been better or sweeter but still it was enough to make me melt for the moment. I'm really thankful to have him. And I hope that he meant it, cause I know and I'm sure of what I've decided cause it wasn't an answer given implusively. However, I still can't help it but feel a little uncertain and insecure about him. I hope the happiness wouldnt be short-lived. And there's still somethings I'm waiting to hear from him.
Anyway, thanks for yr company, cause I really enjoyed myself.
Anyway, today is National Day! I miss ndp 2005 :(
Oh ya and it's Russell's birthday. Happy birthday Russell!
I'll be going out later and I'll share more about it tonight or tml.
bye!
sealed with a kiss
10:36 AM
Thursday, August 7, 2008
I haven't blogged for a long time.
I always say this and somehow I know I don't really put in the effort in updating my blog.
Kind of disappointed.
Anyway,
I have a lot to blog about, just a lot to say.
But I don't know how to start and where to start.......
nevermind.
PHATNITE.
I never really blogged about this event of mine.
Hmmm.
I never regret being part of the committee and I will never regret.
Even though it was tiring with extra work and effort..
But I had my fair share of fun..
The things that I've learnt, the friends that I've made, the people who I got to know better and many more....
These are all priceless, they are what money cant buy..
I wanna applaud, those who didn't give up on this event, those who stayed on and have faith in the committee.
Raymond and Cui Hui, you guys were excellent
And i'm glad that you guys didn't give up on us and the event.
The event had come to an end; It was quite a success, our efforts were paid off.
Really MEMORABLE :))
SERENE.
Okay. My lovely girl has left for australia on the 28th july
I'll miss her and those times spent with her.
Hmmm. Serene wasn't the one who I got to know first, for my batch of B and J girls..
She wasn't the one who was really close to me at first.
It's such an irony, instead I somehow got drift away from the one who was closest to me and got really close to Serene.
I guess we didn't really talked much at first, even though we were in the same clique
But after talking really often to her and hanging out often with her, we found out that we are so alike in so many ways.
Our clique had so many plans, but somehow it was only "talks"
I'm really glad to get to know Serene better and went ahead with her with those plans.
Charlene joined us in some :)
But sadly she missed out some too
For example the sleepover. It was really wonderful, those movies and things we shared.. our little secrets :)
I miss the sleepover
I miss going out with Serene, having lunch, dinner with her and chilling at starbucks with her and friends
Okay, I shall upload some photos
Starbucks near heerens there :)
Cheesecake cafe.
the day after sleepover. near cathay ben and jerrys.
laptop day.
GIRAFFE :))) got ALOT more photos.
goodbye Serene.
My dear girl, Please take care of yourself over in australia. :) I will miss you and do contact me kay. ♥LOVES.
Tidus.
Okay I met up with Tidus after work on Sunday.
I went over to his work place to accompany him as he was working alone.
We were just cam-whoring all the way. And of course we shared some stuffs and did some catching up.
Anyway, Tidus don't rush, take your time and also give her time.
Photo time :)))
Hmmm.
I was talking to zengyi last night
Okay I felt really very bad. As we were talking about someone, something to do with my ex.
Then we were kind of arguing. I feel that it's damn stupid, dumb and really not worth it to spend time talking and arguing about him.
He's my past and definitely not a very good one to remember and talk about.
May be I was stupid but it's over already, I see no point in pondering over it again.
And moreover, I cannot deny that I was at fault too, I spoilt him. But cause of it, I learnt my lesson, a vey big lesson.
If you think that i was shortchanged then don't ever be like him. And treat me well, like how you think I deserve.
I was kind of touched when you say that in the message.
But still sometimes I still can't get what are you thinking. You have very complicated thinking. Always deep in thoughts.
Sometimes I can't help it but feel inferior. You kept me thinking am I good, worthly enough for someone.
I'm kind of demanding, yet I can't bear to put those demands on you, cause I'll feel guilty.
And somehow you give me the thinking that you will get really angry.
Which I don't really wish to happen, I don't like upsetting people.
To end this.. I really do enjoy yr company, be it going out or on the phone :))
Oh ya. I chatted with marcus for a little while as I wanted to ask him something, clearing a little of my doubts and see what others think. And also check on how is he doing cause he fell sick the other time. So my good friend here, was preaching to me on the phone!
Okay it's quite a long post. I've yet to blog about quite alot of stuffs but still I'm satisfied with this post. :)
loves. bye
sealed with a kiss
9:41 AM
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I'm someone who is simply captivated by beautiful and pretty things..
Fascinated with all the sweet and wonderful things around me like chocolates and flowers..
I adore my friends and time spent with all my dearest..
I enjoy RETAIL THERAPY..
Wanting to live life to the fullest by enjoying every moment and experiencing the best..
This blog is a place where i pen down my thoughts and share about my daily lives and as time goes by it allows me to keep it as a memory.(: