Wednesday, April 30, 2008
okay.. i'm in school already...
i was late..
damn tired :((
ytd ended quite late.. left dempsey at bout 11 plus reaching 12.
cabbed and reached home bout 12 plus.
i worked yr raffles city from 12 plus till bout 5.. cos received a call from uncle sam..
asking me to go down dempsey.. cos they need help there..
so i took a cab and rush down to dempsey.. :)) cab fare under company.
work till 9pm. then joined the others for the party :)
was very tired.
sann and arrianne even worse :(
they worked for free cone day already then went dempsey for closing..
i never even work so long like them, already feel so tired.. they shld be feeling much more tired.
ytd also very messy.. so...
anw. in IP tech and networking now..
i catch no balls. :((
gonna fail my this module already. :'(
bye.
sealed with a kiss
10:41 AM
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
i cant slp at this very hour :((
chatting with my good friend online..
okay.. i'm feeling alittle better..
donno why.. it's been years.
jason jus has his way to make me feel better..
so yupp.
this rich ass wans to go bali and have fun..
okay.. i wanna go too! )):
i'm feeling damn stressed.
i really cant take it anymore..
i need to get out of sg!
even jus for awhile will make me feel better.
i haven travel to overseas for bout a yr already..
i really need this break..
feel damn weird if i stay in sg too long and never get out of the country for awhile.
maybe.. if the timing allows if it matches my break.. i might really go bali with jason and whoever..
since my lovely friend did ask me. :))
come to think bout it.. i've known jason for bout 5 years plus; 6 years already..
hmm.. not very long not very short..
when we look back it seems that time past rather fast.
jason is turning 20 already and i'm already 18.. :)
oh man.
those talks.. those fun times with jun zhang ziyan etc etc. those match-making moments..!
haha.
unforgettable. really memoriable.
he taught me quite alot of things... very smart guy.
and yes.. made quite a few good friends too..
as time passes both of us grew up and also changed..
but definitely this friendship never die off. ((:
and yes tml free cone day.. come come find me.
jason better wake up early and find me!
he's damn lazy..
bad-mouthing my good friend ..oops :p
gotta go slp. jason is nagging at me.. :(
he's really like an older bro to me at times..
but he doesnt look that old or ugly k..
haha.
but i know he's one of the few friends who truely cares... :))
one friend whom i really treasure and trust..
nites.loves.
clarissa is sick. )):
sealed with a kiss
2:27 AM
Monday, April 28, 2008
hello helloooo.. ((:
haha. i'm in a lecture now.. but not my lecture!!
it's my freshies'.. i crash lecture. whooo..
it's like so different from ours can...
hahah. they actually queued up to come in...
their lecturer is different from ours too..
i miss erika fong.. her english is powerful.. unlike.... erhmmmm.
so quiet now... damn boring can :((
stephanie stop peeping...!
terrence also...!
lol.. terrence jus waved to the screen.
gosh.. it's so... him.
terrence jus shifted and the whole row of chair moved can..
oh man..
jowell if you're reading.. see how heavy terrence is...
hahah.
gary and darius is obviously not paying attention can!
one playing with his fingers? his nails?
oh man a guy can... tsk tsk tsk.
and darius is like half-aslp already..
and jasmine is like doing some stuffs for the upcoming bbq..
okay..
anw. my freshies are much loved.
and ppl pls pls pls tag k...
my tagboard is practically dead :((
love. loves. loved!
sealed with a kiss
5:21 PM
Sunday, April 27, 2008
i'm enjoying the feeling i'm having now..
i donno why.
i'm feeling kinda tired after work..
but i donno how to describe..
i had a long day of work.. really long..
had a nice dinner with tiffanie and had a long time.. an enjoyable one
i enjoy simple thngs like this..
really open talks etc..
had a walk by myself. from ben and jerrys to the bus stop.. isnt a short one..
kinda dark.. but somehow i enjoy the peacefulness..
i somehow know wad i wan now.. who i like..
but like.. i'm not constrain by it...
i love this feeling..
i don expect everything always go or work the way i wan it to be.. so yupp..
it's too complicated for you all to understand..
but i believe my best friend know wad i'm talking bout..
i have friend of mine who i hadnt chat with for a long time.. he suddenly called me the other..
and we chatted.. haha. i kinda mean. (i'm sorry, if you're reading this)
so yupp.. he can sing very well.. i knew that he can sing well all along.. cos he sang to me b4.
so as usual.. he played his guitar and sang me songs through the phone..
it's very enjoyable listening to it.
i guess singing songs and playing his guitar is already part and parcel of his life cos he's in a band..
erm.. i've heard of it b4.. it has performed quite a few times in clubs etc...
did quite abit on catchin up bout each others life.. etc
i guess i didnt really change.. as usual.
i'm still as secretive as ever and a mystery to you...
haha. but you didnt change much too.. maybe jus alittle.. :)
and you're definitely cheapskate.. you cheated.. went to ask daryl...
DARYL SIT! you were not allowed to tell anyone bout it can.. and you summore tell him... :(( you owe me lots...
to someone.. i guess you don need to avoid me. cos clarissa is nice.. i wont eat you up..
basically, i'm matured enough to think and open-minded enough to still wan you as my friend..
but it's still up to you..
and don worry i called you cos i had something urgent needed you to help me.. but it's okay.
anw. i'm tired.. so i shall jus end here..
and michael i know you are always there for me k.. :)
and so are my sweeties.
thanks.
and mummy i hope you feeling better.
loves.
sealed with a kiss
11:14 PM
okay.. i'm blogging like right in the midle of the night..
i donno why. but i feel like.
today someone said to me.. that we live in 2 different worlds..
it sounds so familiar..
someone said that b4 but i never got the chance to know or ask wad does it mean.
and now i would like to know wad it means by 2 different world?
wad's my world like in another person's view?
and wad is another world like?
i need an answer.. can someone provide me one.
you know i thought that when you like someone or when you are tgt with someone... you two will create another world.. a world that belongs to both of you...
i never thought everything can be perfect so i don expect 2 worlds to be the same.
and cos wads the point when a new world will be created...
goodnight.
sealed with a kiss
4:48 AM
Saturday, April 26, 2008
so much to blog about...!
omg. this is the result of being a lazy blogger...
okay.. anw.. i took away the previous post already...
for those who had read it.. i guess you all wld know wad kind of mentality i had when i was writting it... i meant it and i really do.. The 2 Ts will know the best i guess..
yupp.. and yes. i didnt delete it.. of course i didnt..
cos i guess i never blogged like this b4 and it's the very first time and shall be last one too.. let it be a special one...
nvm.
curious? hack into my acc ((:
okay.. anw anw.. i've got lots on my mind.. donno who to share it with.
been keeping lots to myself.. as usual.. not that i've no one to share it with or not that i don trust ppl..
but somethings are personal.. and for now i don have that one special person to share it with me yet...
i donno how to describe..
The Ts are busy.. one with his girlfriend (: , one with his brothers and all his pretty girls..
I miss van like so much! she's in aust so it so hard, adam too and dom is busy with his studies, busy chionging...
ming as usual, busy with water polo, flirting :) but i know he's here when i really needed.. but still lousy best buddy. :p
i miss charmaine, carina, yunting, nicolechuaniyun like freaking freaking freaking much... the 3 ladies are busy with their As. and as for nicole.. i haven talked to you for like.....................
i definitely miss my pretty girl..Pearlyn :( you're always so busy! the guys are always snatching you away :((
i miss charlene, ser, vanessa, sherlyn!! my sweeties are all busy with work and studies.. we haven really catch up much even though me and sherlyn work in the same branch but we don always work tgt.. wad's more to say bout the others when we are all diff branches...
michael is pretty much preoccupied by his other group of friend, his event and studies
mummy and daddy have their own probs.. rather worrying.. :( but remb you're always loved and missed by yr daughter.. feel free to share with me k :) i can always be yr listening ear.
audrey and jess are as stressed up!
yingyi , cherie and sou are very much missed...
karlu, gwen, siying, jaslin, donna, kesha and my beloved tennis mates are missed... haven chat with some for some time already.. :( okay i promise if i've the time i'll go back and train k..
and manymanymanymany more..
those i never name not cos i don miss you all but cos it's too much...
and these misses are different from the misses i have for someone else..
yes back to point..
i'm freaking stressed..
depressed. upset. confused. sick.
can someone save me :((
but of course i'm also happy at times.. clear minded at times... etc..
all my crazy and interesting ideas and nonsense (((:
and omg i jus received a call from my aunt... i'm so dead.. my phone bill is like so much..
jus outgoing calls itself is already 100 not adding msges, mms, international calls, the basic amount i have to pay for my plan and those extra stuffs... my mum is soo gonna kill me! :((((
okay i shall talk bout orientation and my freshies first..
orientation lasted for 3 days.. overall it was a success..
the planning lasted for a month and it was definitely memorable and seriously hardcore training..
hmm.. the 3 days orientation was definitely sweat and blood.. fun and laughters, really more than words can describe..
and DBI0802.. you all are very much loved by me kay..
really nice bunch of ppl :)
and yes not forgetting my ogls, huishan huiyi and aruna... really nice time with you guys.. without you all i'll be dead..
i'm always running all around.. MIA. (but of course when you all call me to save you all from probs i got rush down k.)
okay.. but really thank you all.
i believe 0802 is definitely so much more bonded after the 3rd day..
you all brought me lots of laughters, joy and friendship :)
and of course my white hair are also by you guys...
haha.
interesting bunch of ppl.. the super noisy and enthu ones. the quiet and demure ones. the shy but not so shy ones.. and the shy and really very shy ones... the smart ones.. the cunning ones.. the good looking ones and the better looking ones. and the best looking ones.. haha.. not forgetting. tall taller and tallest :)
i've been hanging out alot with my freshies..
and yes.. if i can i'll try my best to help them :))
and haha.. thanks for the RED MUG.
those breakfast and lunch... breaks etc are memorable..
to all of you.. thank you. and yes, i cant wait for the bbq :) but why labour day??
Jasmine--- hmmm.. a really nice girl. i trust that you can be a good class rep. I've faith in you and have faith in yourself too like how yr classmates have faith in you k.. as always, you can approach me if there's any probs.. and yes. yr 18 marketing txtbooks can faint. (terrence forget to tell me, so i wasnt mentally prepared).. and yes. bonding yr class as one is yr duty already.. (:
Terrence--- the potential asst class rep. i guess like yr classmates said they will die without you.. it's good that you all are helping one another.. and stop making steph and gary laugh in class k.. concentrate (:
this is terrence:
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
u want my class everybody's name ?
♥ c l a r i s s a. PHATNITE ((: says:
yes
♥ c l a r i s s a. PHATNITE ((: says:
pls
♥ c l a r i s s a. PHATNITE ((: says:
thanks
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
lols
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
i type so long
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
all in wrong window ...
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
nvm ...
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
gary
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
stephanie .
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
jasmine
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
darius
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
ryan
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
dao hong
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
emily
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
yingling
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
rachel
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
sheryl
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
josher
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
hadi
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
syuhada
♥ c l a r i s s a. PHATNITE ((: says:
type all tgt la
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
..................
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
K LA !
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
say ma
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
hahas
♥ c l a r i s s a. PHATNITE ((: says:
lol. that's all?
There can be miracles when you believe. says:
gary, jasmine, darius, stephanie, daohong, ryan, josher, syuhada, hadi, rachel, sheryl, emily, hanzheng, weiming,limguan, siewcheng, yingling and me !
but got new students, fredrick, feifei and si yi.
and terrence sorry bout yr laptop and thanks for yr laptop too. hahaha. i believe yr heart almost dropped out. Nice guy, older than me! :)) and very loving with his pretty girlfriend.
Gary--- Steph's twin.. haha.. okay. gary is nice.. friendly.. fun. hahah.. and noisy! will never forget "CLARISSSSAAAAAA!" at koufu k..! and gary is a typical singaporean.. very kiasu. haha.. join so many cca can!! ((:
Stephanie--- a really pretty girl.. haha.. yr cliques calls you yao gui.. nvm la.. you can afford to be one.. heard of yr stories already.. next time must share with me k... chocolates tidbits.. ((: haha. and.. don worry bout yr admin card k... it's only a photo and you can always stick another photo on it. and you know ppl always change.. and you can proudly tell ppl you changed for the better unlike them :p
Darius--- hmmm.. darius is always tgt with jasmine.. super glue.okay la.. yr clique is always tgt.. and i happen to always join you all :p yupp.. so darius.. the mug ar.. hmmmm... remb-ed. :) and you jas gary is really lucky... enrolled tgt and got into the same class :) cos there was special request... treasure it k.. and of course hope you're adapting well. the quieter one in the group. but i know you're also part of the "CLARISSSAAAA" k.
Ryan--- a really active and lively guy.. hope you like yr class... :) and yes. if there's anything i can help i will try my best k.. at least i know you do approach me when you needed help..
Dao Hong--- dao hong is taller and so much bigger in size than me, helpful guy... okay.. you're one of the few who does contact me.. so yupp.. hmm.. not very quiet also not very outspoken. but i believe you also have lots of funny ideas like gary they all.. :) Am i very fierce?? :((
Emily--- hmmm.. i don chat much with you but hope to know you better... i guess you're one of the quieter ones. the clique of girls.. speak up more sweetie..
YingLing--- i don really know you.but when i meet up with yr class,
hope you will approach me and chat with me k :)
Rachel--- little miss know it all.. haha.. really lively girl who knows quite alot of things.. don really chat much with you but i know you shld be adapting well... cos you're rather bubbly.
Sheryl--- sheryl sheryl... sheryl has a blog.. and i tagged on it b4 :) haha.. okay. i haven chat much with you.. but if there's anything pls learn like terrence, jas they all.. really feel free to ask me k.. hahah.
Josher--- hmm. don really know you that well.. but it's good that you're joining tennis..! hahah.. very much loved..
Hadi---don really know you well but hope you get to know you better :)
Syuhada---you're rather quiet.. hope to see you talk more... must win terrence gary and steph k! :)
Han Zheng--- a really quiet guy.. hope you will open up and yes.. hope you all will not outcast him and let him join you all k.
Weiming--- hmmm.. thought you small size but equally playful and full of INTERESTING ideas.. i believe. and yes.. remb. yr nice ogl is always there to guide you.
Limguan--- hmmm.. a really nice girl... heheh.. love you even more when you say i'm pretty.. hahaha... okay. anw.. i hope you like yr class.. and yes you're definitely very helpful... unlike someone la.. don wanna help me get my drink :( (*hint hint).. and i'm sure you're daring enough to approach me. :)))
Siewcheng--- tall tall tall.. you're tall can.. :( haha.. okay.. always meet you where ever i go.. nice and sweet girl.. outspoken enough to approach me i guess..
Fredrick--- Seen you b4 but haven chat with you... :)) donno why you werent there for orientation but hope you like yr new found friends..
Fei Fei--- caught a glimpse of you... but haven chat with you yet. hope you're adapting well..
Si Yi--- i haven seen you before but i wld love to (: heard of you though..
Gladys--- hmmm.. even though you're not in 0802 but i believe you have lots of chance to join 0802 cos 0801 is very close to 0802.. i hope you're adapting well with yr classmates. and remb this. like i said if there's anything you can always feel free to approach me.. i'm always yr ogl k. and yes.. gladys is a really nice quiet and shy girl.
okay so end of the list :)))) and yes.. 0802 i'll always remb the super embarrassing moment.. "BYE CLARISSSSAAA". thanks alot.
REMB-ED.
i've got alot alot more photos.. will upload the next time.
okay.. so now this is to germaine (mummy)..
cheer up sweetie..
you know you really said sth very right "there's no such thing as not good enough. you would be if you put in the effort."
you kind of taught me sth. :)
i know this is a very difficult period for you..
but i believe and i know you can get over it..
cos you're not that weak.. and you have yr friends and me...
i'll always be there for you no matter wad... you're always my mummy k..
and very much loved by me.
i understand how you're feeling right now.. cos i've been through it..
time will tell alot of things..
i guess i'm not in the right position to really advise you..
but i guess like you've said to me earlier on..
you asked me to move on..
and if he's mine he will be mine.. and he will be willing to wait or when time is right he will come to me...
so remb, say this to yrself too..
you're a pretty girl, intelligent and sweet. I believe with yr calibre you will have no problem..
take yr time.. you're still young... :)
if i can do it.. i believe you can too...
and yes. thanks for yr encouragement mummy..
i'm always willingly to lend you my listening ears k.
as you know i'm not really in a good state myself..
but if i can help i would love to..
okay.. i'll jus end here for today and yes.. talk more another day. :)
loves.
sealed with a kiss
10:49 AM
Saturday, April 12, 2008
i'm confused..
feeling extremely tired.. exhausted.
maybe i haven had this kind of feeling for a long time already..
it frightens me when someone looks into my eyes and try to see through me.. or read what am i thinking.
i jus really dont know what i really wan now.
never did i wanna hurt anyone...
cos i know the feeling of being hurt. i understand the feeling of it.
i fear of the hurt i had received
i'm frightened by this feeling.
this is so not me! behaving jus like a coward.
but i really do not have the courage to face it.. nor the trust is strongly built yet.
i really do enjoy the company.
and i haven felt like this for sometime already..
but i kind of realise the presence of this gap surfacing at times.
i donno how to describe it.
anw.. i'm falling sick :(
my mood which has been up and down.. hasnt been helping me much..
for me i will become more sick when i'm upset.. moody...
i keep quite alot of things to myself..
i don usually share with ppl..
it's a bad habit...
but not many will ask me too...
i guess i'm kind of mysterious...
or maybe only my best buddy knows me best.. and maybe he's the only one who will know how to ask me, dare to ask me and bothered to ask me..
feeling damn emo now..
but my mood changes quite fast at times.. so..
if you know me well you will know, sometimes i'm jus like a little girl, who cries quite a lot.. very whiny
but i'm also very easy to pacify...
however, for this not many knows and bothers...
okay. i shall jus end here for now..
byeee.
sealed with a kiss
5:41 PM
clarissawee.
o6o490 (:
fairsian. nanyang poly :)
I'm someone who is simply captivated by beautiful and pretty things..
Fascinated with all the sweet and wonderful things around me like chocolates and flowers..
I adore my friends and time spent with all my dearest..
I enjoy RETAIL THERAPY..
Wanting to live life to the fullest by enjoying every moment and experiencing the best..
This blog is a place where i pen down my thoughts and share about my daily lives and as time goes by it allows me to keep it as a memory.(: