If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Thursday, January 31, 2008
i'm in school now. jus feel like being alone..
i know i'm at fault for being late... but why when things turn out well you all take credit and when things are bad all is blamed on me.. i don understand... i know i tried my best and i did my work..
you all are upset.. i understand but so am i.. i feel like an idiot.. putting so much effort into the work yet i'm never appreciated.
if you have sth to say.. jus say it in my face.. jus tell me.. why must say until like this...
somehow i jus cant help it but cry..
nvm.. thankful that i have jess and sam they all..
sealed with a kiss
12:16 PM
Saturday, January 26, 2008
i jus caught a movie through the television.. "raising helen" it's awesome... somehow i liked the storyline...
i had been thinking through lots these past few days.. i'm confused.. lots on my mind... unsure of how i feel..
but somehow i know someone inspired me ytd... donno why. made me willing to face my problems and think through about it... i really thought through wad i wan.. wad i need at this period of time..
maybe my mind is clearer now..
This is ME.. i can be weak and helpless to the guy i love at times.. cos isnt it always like this when you're in love.. and the person you love should be someone you wanna rely on.. however, i can be strong too... cuz i wan the one i love to rely on me too.. it's all about give and take.. it's all about growing up together.. and it's all about this one word.. LOVE.
i liked this song.. bleeding love somehow it's nice.. go listen to it and you will neer know.. you might jus fall in love with it...
sealed with a kiss
9:35 PM
it's my sister's birthday today.. that woman is 22 this year.. i will never forget last year on this very day.. it was spent with him..
somehow i donno how to tell ppl that we are over already.. it makes me feel really upset when some asked about him at the party.. i donno wad to say.. i really felt like crying..
it's has only been less than a week... i had been trying my best to be strong. cos i know.. i know that my good friends had been very worried about me.. i guess i really need time.. i went through lots with him... maybe most of you will think that i suffered a lot while i was with him.. but it's still memorable.. be it sweet or sour, bitter or salty...?
anw... i know he moved on already.. i'm trying my best. expect me to forget him immediately. i can tell you it's impossible.. but i know i will i know i can... i wanna cherish those ard me now.. i wanna cherish those times spent with my friends.. i will cherish those who stand by me at this point of time.. i will treasure those who are supporting me now.. cos i know i'm loved by them.. and i wanna love myself too...
only then.. i will slowly start to learn to love someone again... i wan someone who truly loves me and will treasure me.. treating me well.. accepting who am i.. willing to pamper me at times. and can communicate well with me..
i cant predict the future. but i know only if i'm willing to try then i'll move on well..
nites. bye
sealed with a kiss
12:10 AM
Thursday, January 24, 2008
somehow i'm feeling rather happy now. or maybe satisfied. cos i'm done with my 2 presentations.. it's tiring, exhausting.... i'm feeling shagged...
but somehow don feel like sleeping.. cuz i'm afraid this happy feeling doesnt last long..
too many things on my mind.. don really know wad to say now... anw. i shall upload a video let you guys see... it's a short clip done for my presentation..
how about you guys share yr comments about it..
tml is my sis's birthday.. time flies.. still remb last yr.. she celebrated her 21st birthday in a suite at ritz carlton... i was there with him.. memorable. nvm..
even though i don have him.. i know i still have my lovely friends who are there for me. loved!
anw. tatas..
sealed with a kiss
9:10 PM
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
over.. it's over.. i know many of you thinks that it's better.. maybe it might be better or it is better.
but wad i know is that i'm hurting.. hurting so badly. my heart is bleeding.. but no one sees that... i'm crying but no one know. my heart is crying out silently and painfully..
i donno wad to do or wad can i do anymore.. you're so selfish. so so selfish and i hate this.. i'm so affected by it.. so affected by you at this point of time i'm also so stressed out with my sch work. projects and projects.. presentations and exams.. it never seems to stop. but all these don seems to take my mind off you.. it don seems to take the pain away..
i don really expect anyone to understand how i feel right now.. and i don wish to affect another with how i'm feeling right now.
how i wish my pain can be lessen.. you left me at the time when i needed you most.. you're always like this..
somehow i hope you will come back to me.. but i know those problems cant be solved within a day. and i'm tired very tired.. i'm trying my best.. and it's taking away all my energy.. i cld barely slp.. i can hardly concentrate...
tell me how tell me why teach me how.
i guess at this point of time.. i will need to depend alot on my friends. i will need support from my dearest..
but i wanna promise myself.. to be the clarissa i used to be.. the clarissa who had confidence... the clarissa who's independent. the clarissa who spends most of her time with her friends. the clarissa who my friends and i know of b4 changing cos of him.. the clarissa who others prefer.
i donno. i jus wanna be me again.. living for myself not jus for him.
but i cant deny i still love him. loving him every moment.
anw. i'm gonna work at ben and jerry's.. hope this will help to keep my mind off him..
met up with adam, dom and van last week.. on fri after sch. it was really nice.. cos i never felt so relax or open about such things b4. it was fun. and i jus love those times spent with them. they never fails to make me smile.. you guys are loved!
needa end here.bye.
sealed with a kiss
5:02 PM
clarissawee.
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I'm someone who is simply captivated by beautiful and pretty things..
Fascinated with all the sweet and wonderful things around me like chocolates and flowers..
I adore my friends and time spent with all my dearest..
I enjoy RETAIL THERAPY..
Wanting to live life to the fullest by enjoying every moment and experiencing the best..
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