If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Friday, November 30, 2007
i haven been feeling well.. so stressed.. so tired. hate it when i'm sick.. fever and diarrhoea.. and all these cause i'm stressed... :(((((((
hais.. clarissa is upset. clarissa is sick. clarissa is emo. clarissa misses him..
clarissa loves him clarissa wants him clarissa needs him.. where is he..........?
sealed with a kiss
9:47 AM
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Tell me one more time..
have been rather busy with sch.. i thought maybe keeping myself busy would be good.. cuz i wldnt have thea chance to go think about other things.. but i'm wrong.. even how busy am i with my tests, assignments and projects.. he still seems to occupy my mind and heart... i'm feeling so tired.. really really very very tired and upset.. but i guess no one can really understand how i feel.. crying practically every night.. tearing jus for him..
i hate this feeling.. i really don like it.. can anyone someone jus tell me what shld i really do.. can someone jus be me for a day..
this song somehow jus says how i feel.. i changed it abit.. i shall jus let this song express how i feel...
C'mon and tell me baby
Do you believe in love The way that I do? And when you find the one Wherever you go They'll travel with you What can I say? Where do I start? To pick up the pieces Of your broken heart
Tell me one more time Why your heart cannot be mine Look into my eyes and say That love has gone And I’ll be brave enough to walk away Tell me one more time Why your dreams cannot be mine 'Cause I won't believe it’s true Until I hear it from you
Do you believe in love? There’s no right no wrong, no, no Love’s just an open road With different ways of moving on I dare you to stay And work this thing out 'Cause leaving is taking The easy way out
Back in my life I want you so bad And losing you is losing all that I had And this is crazy So why can't you see You’re the only one that ever mattered to me
Oh baby Look into my eyes Love is truly gone I will run away Tell me one more time Dreams cannot be mine No I won't believe it Until I hear it Until I hear it from you
A good friend of mine asked me " why stay together?" and i answered that friend of mine that it's a long story..
and now this is my story...
For everyone, the story goes There’s a special someone To make them whole Someone to give their heart completely
And you may search high and low But when you find your angel How will you know? Then you finally get that feeling It’ll be as clear as the air you’re breathing
That’s when the world feels small beneath your feet It’s when the stars above are only just out of reach When you feel you’re alive For the very first time And there’s nothing that you can’t rise above That’s when you know that you’re in love
Who can tell the time and place When you see your soul reflected in their face It would be a spell you’re under And it’ll hit you just like thunder
That’s when the world feels small beneath your feet That’s when the stars above are only just out of reach When you feel you’re alive For the very first time When you hold them in your arms and can’t let go And that’s when you know
For all my life I have been searching for something that I couldn’t find But now I know you are the one I understand I read the signs
‘Cause now the world feels small beneath my feet And all the stars above are only just out of reach When you feel so alive For the very first time And there’s nothing that you can’t rise above That’s when you know that you’re in love That’s when you know
but am i right? is he really the one for me?? i'm sorry but now i cant help it but beginning to doubt bout this.. and ask this question now.. cuz things jus don seems to be alright.. it jus isnt smooth.. it jus don seems right... why why why..?! issit all my fault??
ytd i jus told my friend that i'm strong.. but in actual fact i know i'm not.. i'm jus trying to be strong... and there's no easy way out.. everything jus don seems right.. i really need someone to be by my side..
someone asked me.. if i have a yr1 and a yr3 who's wooing me now.. who will i choose..? will i prefer a yr1 jus like me. or a yr3 who's gonna graduate..... and my answer was.. i donno cuz somehow it's not happening to me.. but i know i will follow my heart cuz yr1 and yr3 doesnt matter, wad matter most to me, is the person itself and who i really want..
too many things on my mind.. i'm exhausted. extremely exhausted..:((((((((((((((( the world is not perfect... i know i'm not perfect.. but i'm trying my best.. cant you see the effort i put in for you.. when will i ever be good enough for you...... :'(
bye.
sealed with a kiss
10:30 PM
Thursday, November 22, 2007
i'm confused..
i really donno wad to do and wad can i do already.. i'm really very tired..
finally van is back.. went out with her ytd.. goin out with her is niceeee.. ate at some nice place at taka.. then played pool at meridian.. haven played for a long time.. a nice one. :)) then went for massage.. my dear girl paid for it la.. sweetsss..
hais.. he came to meet me b4 massage. saying that he help me hold my bag... he really upset me by doing that..
he took my cam.. some cash and threw the ring in there.. and wad hurts me is that he cant even be bothered with me.. he did wad he wan and jus left my bag with the shop people.. wad is he trying to tell me.. shld i give up..?
so many ppl is telling me to do so.. so discouraged.. i guess he really does matter alot ALOT to me... things that he's doing really upsets me..
really very unlucky.. left my hp in his car... arhhhhh...! keep finding excuses not to meet him.. now i really got no choice already... think he purposely one la.. :(((((( unhappy.. angry la. angry angry angry!
and yet baby is giving me so much prob.. hais.. got something for him already.. wanna give him a surprise.. still haven collect my pay :( wanna use that to buy him a psp to surprise him... ppl tell me that i'm stupid.. but i thought even if he leaves me i also wanna give him..
love is blind.. it blinded me.. i love him.. really really love him.. knowing that he's not that gd to me.. i still cant help it.. i wonder does he still love me..
keep on tearing cuz of him.. blogging in sch now..really feel like crying.. it's so hard to tolerate...
bye.
sealed with a kiss
1:23 PM
Friday, November 9, 2007
he's just a son of a bitch :))
sealed with a kiss
1:18 PM
clarissawee.
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